I remember a time when I was truly penniless… up to my eyeballs in debt, avoiding going bankrupt by selling my dream cottage, my health was terrible, depression was like a big black cloud hanging over me, and I was scared. I didn’t know how to get out of the mess I had created for myself.
One thing I realised was, that change was going to come – either from me doing something different – or from having my home taken away from me and worse…
I suppose for me when my back was truly against the wall (it took some time), it was sink or swim time.
And I chose to swim.
My life changed, when I changed. When I stepped away from what no longer served me and towards a happier, more joyful life, creating a business that makes my heart sing and generates me a fabulous income.
Now when I’m ready to uplevel, to step up and do something new, I’m still scared.
The old patterns still come up for me, I want to protect myself, play small, fit in and not risk what I’ve created. But where’s the growth in that? Where’s the love in that?
Someone said, if you’re not growing you’re dying… and I know that I’m here to make a difference in the world (just like you) and by playing small, we’ll, it’s just not going to happen is it?
So taking a step up seems massive. And I’ve chosen to take it.
I’ve had an idea this week… something I ‘wanted’ to do, a part of me was saying “go for it!” and another was saying “No! Stay safe!”
I’ve wrestled with the decision making for a few days and for someone who’s generally spontaneous this shows how deep this one goes. I want to be a globe trotter! One of my deepest desires is to travel the world. This summer I’ve been fortunate to work from various locations around the UK and recently France… and I’m ready for more…
And today, I decided! And what a relief it was, my energy is now high, I’m ready!!!
I’m off to Sydney, Australia to attend Gina DeVee’s event next month!